Disappointed, going crazy.

Seriously, I have no idea what's going on last two weeks. I'm not going out because I'm too afraid that I'll meet somebody I know. Call it some kind of phobia, but if I met them, I would probably kill myself on that place. I don't know to talkt to anybody, I'm too disappointed to be able to get over it.

Now I just sit at home, hide myself in books chatting with people from different countries and that's too fucked up. I can't understand why all of these great people lives so far away from me! I want to go, stel money somewhere, buy airplane tickets and leave this place just to be with them.. I need to find some way to stop being too lazy. I'll probably start drawing again, making jewelery, sew and so on.. I need to make myself happier than I am right now.